i feel like i have losted you. and i hate that feeling. its you i will always love and want to be with. you really were my first love. and you have put me through so much that i dont believe you see what all you have really done to me. and i should be mad and done with you but im not cause i care for you that much and i dont want to give up on what we have. cause theres something there and dont tell me you dont feel it too. you never gave me a chance to show you how i can love you. you was always thinking i wanted to settle down. but if you only knew all i wanted was your love. theres not a day that goes by that i dont think about you. i hope theres one day where we try what we had before and i hope we suceed and never let each other go.
I just want to go back to the nights where you held me in your arms. I felt protected, I felt like nothing could go wrong, I felt as if it was only you and me and all my worries was gone. But I don’t feel anything any more expect hurt. Hurt that you went away. Sickness comes along with feeling hurt. Sick of thinking that you could love someone else after spending all that time together. I thought I found the one, but I was wrong. I wish I wasn’t wrong but no one is always right. I don’t think I could ever stop loving you or caring for you. I just wish you could say the same.
You kill me sometimes.
So I sit here and wonder why you gotta do this to me? You must have knew what I wanted to hear, because you knew exactly what to say. Did you mean it; what you said to me? Or did you have nothing else to say? I don’t know what to think about you anymore. I’m confused and a little hurt. I want this more than anything right now. An I wish I could act like you ain’t the one but I can’t help it. Thinking of you I can smile, get mad, and it can put me in the worst mood. But I never stay mad at you. Or stop thinking about you. I have so much stress on me. And it’s all because of you.